cold: neverending winter by fiendorian, literature
Literature
cold: neverending winter
Cold: Neverending Winter
The hostile air invades your lungs
Exhale: you're sencing something wrong
your pumping heart's the only thing
that gives you the illusion,
of rythm....
and the rest...
..is nothing but confusion ..
The rushing winds resist your steps
as you walk through the wasteland...
the winter air cuts through your skin..
but you re too numb to sence that..
confused by the agression
you lack total awareness....
they're pathologycal, they're acid,
your cycling introspections,
no hope for now, no method..
to gain selfmedication
The frozen rain now covers...
... traces to destinations.
The cold is your innertia
one part
wake up, again
the same old set
your stage, the place where you were left
to live this segment of existence
get by with one body and conscience
this place just used to have such light
there was no need for no resistance
and you felt welcome when inside
cause it had life
and it had substance
and every second had it's sense
a place along the line of reason
every day your spirit just got richer
your mind expanded right along
with every passing season
the faceless actors just passed by
they played their part with no hostile intentions
you were right there and you said all your lines
because you understood their though
Reflecting Anger
The rivers have dried out
The blood red sun is setting
The air is filled with dust
The view is just disgusting.
Stare into the horizon
You re watching the light die,
The night dissolves inside you,
It melts inside your eyes.
Is it the desolation inside?
Does that make you feel weak
Or is it the cold wasteland
That's lying at your feet...
Your scars are now so old
you can t even remember the
times that you were whole.
And when the pain is real
beyond normal perception,
you forget about hope
because right here,
it has no real tension
it s to distant to breach
inside your new hellish dimension.
You don;t
Cruce, credinta, biserica,
Iar la un pas de resemnare,
In acelasi loc de stiinta,
De fapt simpla aglomerare de aprofundari superficiale.
Si poate chiar sunt un nimic,
Dar un nimic cu aspiratii.
Mi-ai tipat, ti-am tipat si a ramas o pictura in ceata.
Ma intrebi de durere...
Stii...a existat,
Dar am lasat-o sub asfalt,
Unul nou, pregatit de dezamagiri inedite,
Cu un maxim de intuitie.
Am fost iar lasa si nu am stiut de momentul oportun.
Altii mi-au luat-o inainte.
Am vrut sa simt pamantul, sa-i simt trairile...
Dar am uitat cateva zeci de ani,
I-am taiat cu o unghiera.
Si am asteptat...
Ce?
Un inceput, un sentiment, un vers,
R: Ploua atunci cu ganduri in nestire
ma cutremura vant de adormie
Ploua intre noi cu vise secate
ma cutremurau frunze scuturate
Umblam pe strazi, era frig de blasfemii
nascut din toamna altor vinovatii
Mereu fugeam pe raza unui apus,
doar un banal nor al unui eu nespus.
Mergeam printre umbre negre de idei
ce apartineau cu totul altor zei
Azi am ramas sa fiu doar un dor nebun
al acelui de mult uitat "acum".
Ma plimbam printre conceptele noastre
- anotimpuri cu ceruri mai albastre
Astazi stau sa ma scurg pe nesimtite
fara sens, printre crengile golite
Umblam pe strazi cu frig de vinovatii
iar eu credeam ca sunt sim
I shall cast your sins upon the endless sea,
And then both our minds will finally be free.
I gaze at it, infinite and poison green
It reminds me of your eyes and what they've seen.
It could be made of your tears, if you'd cry.
I could drown my dreams in it, so they all die.
And please don't dare say that I am to blame.
It's not our fault, the gods must have been insane.
I am no artist, I claim no perfection
I'm not dead, don't speak of no resurrection.
Tought of life so much I've given the sun a stroke,
Been here so long I have drowned the sand in smoke.
I suffer, I admit, I dwell on my past
Sworn to the sea and the sun, it will
Current Residence: Arad/Oradea..Romania (what an amazing place) Favourite genre of music: mostly rock but open to solid values Shell of choice: earphones Favourite cartoon character: Ed from Ed, Edd ~ Eddy Personal Quote: The contradictory sensations that life offers can sometimes be hard to fit in YOUR HEAD
Favourite Movies
Hannibal-Rising
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Slipknot, Deftones etc - many bands of many colors
home (for now ) enjoying tha holiday break from schoollll... '09 will be veryy busy for me at least the beginning ofit.. well hoping for positive stuff to hapen.
Ideea e urmatoarea: HappyNewYear people!! :D :salute:
journal entry since like god knows when.. months anyway Nothing much to say, shool's on for sometime now, I'm just taking my time with that cause it has a wonderful way of being time and mind consuming.. This summer was, Idunno.. interesting In fact it was so interesting that I completely forgot about dA or it's purpose (for example).. but now that I ve got back to a sane rythm and ventricular contractions I just hope I can get somethin' decent on paper school related or not... home is a relative concept especially for me, realized that from a note i received... cheers !
clubs... ~AngstyWriters (https://www.deviantart.com/angstywriters) :icondesenero: :iconlowtech-artists: :icon
pai las' ca o fi bine, it always is . eu poimaine o sa iau primu contact cu "studentia" si i'm pretti excited about it [ma gandesc ca dupa cativa ani in ritmu ala nu o sa mai fiu]. i shall call you to catch up more. hugsss